About six weeks ago one of my docs recommended Neurontin for my hot flashes. She said a low dose to start and see how I do. The beauty of this drug is that I sleep through the night. I hadn't done that on a regular basis in 20 years. . Six weeks later I feel like a shell of my former self. My vitamins and hormone levels are super low. (Low hormones for this survivor is good for cancer prevention) but I'm losing my mind. My metabolism has all but stopped working. My adrenals are stressed out and worst of all I feel like I'm just here.... Well not really feeling much at all. . The funny things about it is that I wrote off the mods swings, the crying, the apathy to the onset of menopause. (Thank you chemo). I wasn't even thinking about what I was taking because it felt good to sleep and not wake up tired. . It's funny how you can talk yourself into something isn't it? I feel muted and lethargic and I'm currently at weight I've only seen pregnant. There's no particular reason for the weight gain as my habits hadn't changed - eat, exercise and enjoy. . A doctor gave me some answers with my blood work. The lack of progesterone and the Lowe vitamin Bs affect your metabolism. I had a B12 shot and felt BRIGHT. It was like the sun descended upon me right there in her office. . Today I resolve to move forward and get back to myself. Six weeks is a long time. Now I feel completely overwhelmed and behind. I'm not sure even where to start. But I'm starting. . #nevergiveup